Jobless bum

So, I've been turned down for another two jobs. It's already May and I have officially run out of prospective schools where I'd actually want to teach. There's only one opening in Shelby county, so I'm not too optimistic about that one. I actually applied with Memphis City Schools today... If it comes down to it though, I don't know if I'm equipped to handle an inner city school. I look (and am) so young and "fresh off the farm"... they'd spot me out in a second and eat me for lunch. I don't think I could handle it emotionally.
But I'm running out of options. Aaron and I had talked a while back... assuming that I would get a job, and at that point, it seemed a given, our immediate life was planned out thus: this fall, start teaching; a few months later, buy a house; coordinate mating calls so that a baby appears around the end of my second year. We had it all worked out to a T. All hinged on the one thing that doesn't seem to be able to materialize.

And it's not just that... it's the frustration and self-doubt that comes with being rejected; it's being stuck at home feeling worthless; it's not having colleagues and other adults to get to know. I'm frustrated and don't know what to do about it. Without a teaching position, I have no purpose, no drive. I'm worthless.