Water Bearer

Not that I pay the least bit of attention to astrology, but this fits me to a T. Forgive me as this is a long quote dump, but I want to interact with it before I share. Blue text is the website; red text is yours truly.

Aquarians basically possess strong and attractive personalities. They fall into two principle types: one shy, sensitive, gentle and patient; the other exuberant, lively and exhibitionist, sometimes hiding the considerable depths of their character under a cloak of frivolity. Of course, I am both types and often bounce between them with amazing rapidity. Hiding under a cloak of frivolity? - oh yes, this is something I do quite well. Both types are strong willed and forceful in their different ways yes and have strong convictions, yes though as they seek truth above all things, YES! they are usually honest enough to change their opinions, however firmly held, if evidence comes to light which persuades them that they have been mistaken. yes, although I am not easily convinced They have a breadth of vision that brings diverse factors into a whole, and can see both sides of an argument without shilly-shallying as to which side to take. which can be fun when used to toy with others, lol Consequently they are unprejudiced and tolerant of other points of view. and in turn, frustrated that others are not so with me. This is because they can see the validity of the argument, even if they do not accept it themselves. They obey the Quaker exhortation to "Be open to truth, from whatever source it comes," ooooh, I like that. and are prepared to learn from everyone and everything; there is knowledge and truth in everything. I'm not sure if this could represent me any more if it had been written with me in mind. Kinda makes me wonder if there was a man with a hidden camera all my life, taking notes.

Both types are humane, frank, serious minded, genial, refined, sometimes ethereal, and idealistic, though this last quality is tempered with a sensible practicality. That's me as a laundry list. They are quick, active and persevering without being self-assertive, and express themselves with reason, moderation and sometimes, a dry humor. And there's the second load of laundry! Um, yeah... I'm busy looking for the hidden camera... brb...

They are nearly always intelligent, concise, clear and logical. Intellegent, yes, but unless I feel comfortable with the person to whom I'm speaking, I usually come off muddled and spacey. Many are strongly imaginative yep and psychically intuitive, so that the Age of Aquarius, which is about to begin, is much anticipated by psychic circles as an age in which mankind will experience a great spiritual awakening. Come on, sing with me - This is the dawning of the age of Aquarious... The Aquarian philosophical and spiritual bent may be dangerous in that it can drive the subjects into an ivory-tower existence where they meditate on abstractions that bear little relevance to life. True... but I am working on that. On the other hand it can help the many who have scientific leanings to combine these with the Aquarian yearning for the universal recognition of the brotherhood of man, and to embark on scientific research to fulfill their philanthropic ideals of benefiting mankind. See! And heaven knows I inhale knowledge like a Hoover with a broken off switch. I am a space cadet who has designed the rocket ship in her head so that everyone else just thinks I'm spacey. Although my "philanthropic" focus is inward at the moment, I do gain my greatest happiness from helping others. When some cause or work of this nature inspires them, they are capable of such devotion to it that they may drive themselves to the point of exhaustion and even risk injuring their health. This is true. I now am learning to be selfish. It's a novelty I had always repressed.

Both types need to retire from the world at times and to become temporary loners. At times? I'm always a loner. A loner that craves the company of a highly select few. (I do so love my seeming contradictions) They appreciate opportunities for meditation or, if they are religious, of retreats. In with the Chi, repulse the monkey... :) Even in company they are fiercely independent, refusing to follow the crowd. Ah, this is one that perhaps does not fit so well. I am becoming fiercely independent and would like to be more so, but as to going against the crowd, I am very subtle so that others do not notice. They dislike interference by others, however helpfully intended, and will accept it only on their own terms. Lol, yep. Normally they have good taste in drama, music and art, and are also gifted in the arts, especially drama. Ah, but not as much as I would prefer. I am envious of artists - in any medium - and am fascinated to watch them create, to live vicariously through them and to glean something through osmosis.

In spite of the often intensely magnetic, forthcoming and open personality of the more extrovert kind of Aquarian, and of their desire to help humanity, neither type makes friends easily. They sometimes appear to condescend to others and take too little trouble to cultivate the acquaintance of people who do not particularly appeal to them. I haven't found the hidden camera yet... but I'm now convinced of its existence. People whom I like can never believe this until they see me around others... but this is me to a T. I do not like "people" - those I classify as "not friends" - and see no point in wasting my time. I hate making menial conversation - Yes, I think you provide the intellectual stimulation of limestone and much prefer to sit in a corner watching you and the other ants in your social mill.

They do not give themselves easily - perhaps their judgment of human nature is too good for that - and are sometimes accounted cold. But once they decide that someone is worthy of their friendship or love, oh man, when I do... watch out! they can exert an almost hypnotic and irresistible mental attraction on them and will themselves become tenacious friends or lovers, ready to sacrifice everything for their partners and be faithful to them for life. However, they are sometimes disappointed emotionally because their own high personal ideals cause them to demand more of others than is reasonable. Ah, all so true!! I would only add that I categorize people into 3 categories: People, Friends, and Kindred Spirits. I hate People; I love Friends. With Kindred Spirits, however, I have no fences and love with a sort of ferocity that can easily scare others away. With these few (I can count more fingers than K.S.), I would happily sacrifice everything... and yes, I expect the same ferocity and am often disappointed. And if they are deceived, their anger is terrible. If disillusioned, they do not forgive. I do forgive although it is unlikely that I will trust them again. And for me, trust is everything. My anger scares even me, but I have worked hard for self-awareness and control. Woe to the person who backs me into a corner, however. They will regret it immediately; I will regret it after the lava has cooled.

Aquarians work best in group projects, provided that they are recognized as having a leading part in them. Wow, the first incorrect thing. I much prefer to work alone where nobody can screw up my work and where I don't have to act as a crutch for the others. I always end up doing everybody else's work. They have a feeling of unity with nature and a desire for knowledge and truth that makes them admirable scientists, especially astronomers and natural historians. Unity with nature, YES! Desire for knowledge - I inhale everything, YES! They may excel in photography, radiography, electronics - anything connected with the electrical and radio industries - aviation and everything technical. Although I have an analytical and mechanical turn of mind, I have never worked with electronics, etc. Photography, on the other hand, I adore. Please donate to the Buy Erin a Big-Ass Expensive Camera fund. On the arts and humanities side their progressive tendencies can be expressed in writing, especially poetry, and broadcasting, or as welfare workers and teachers. Teaching, yes, but teachers don't get to do that anymore (I'm too perfectionistic and idealistic to make a good teacher anyway)... but I do loves me my writing - can you tell? hehe Some have gifts as entertainers and make good character actors (having an ability to mimic) and musicians. I can't tell a story to save my life, but I enjoy drama. I play flute and piccolo. I have also taught myself to play clarinet. I used to be able to play the sax and trumpet decently when I was back in high school because I would steal other's instruments. It takes me about 2 weeks to get ~intermediate proficiency on an instrument. The more psychic among them possess healing gifts, especially in curing the mentally sick. Um, nope. Although I have been told that I have that gift. *shrug*

Among the faults to which they are liable are fanatical eccentricity, wayward egotism hardly, although I have little time for ignorance, excessive detachment and an inclination to retreat from life and society, can be true, yes and a tendency to be extremely dogmatic in their opinions. NO! Nothing is black and white, there is never a one true way... everything is subjective, and dogmatic opinions/expressions irritate me beyond belief. (And please tell me you see the contradiction and irony in what I just said, lol) Aquarians can be a threat to all they survey or a great boon for humanity in general. Circumstances - for example, continuous opposition to a cause they hold dear - may cause the atrophy of the openness of mind that is one of the Aquarian's most attractive traits. They may express a lack of integrity in broken promises, secretiveness or cunning. Simmering anger and resentment, rudeness or, worse, a tense, threatening silence which may suddenly burst out in eruptions of extreme temper, these are all part of the negative side of the Aquarian. This can also reveal itself in a sustained hatred for enemies that is capable of enlarging itself into a misanthropy toward the whole of mankind. Ah, the old me... I remember it well.